I'll Be Ok

"I love that image of God holding my hand and no matter what I do, no matter what I say, or no matter how much I push him away, he is going to draw near to me because that is who he is and that is what he promises to be. And so I know that no matter how I handle this...whether I'm sad or angry or bitter...he's gonna draw near.

I don't feel ready...but that's ok...

and I'll be ok.

To the next part of my journey."

I recorded this an hour before the last of my hair was shaved from my head. This 7 minute video is my heart poured out in the moments before one of the most emotional experiences of my life thus far.

A different type of post than my first, not so artistically worded or carefully planned. It's just me--sharing in the moment--both my pain and my hope as well--with you. I didn't know if I would share this, but looking back now, I know it's important.

This second video is the condensed recording of shaving my head. it was such a beautiful experience full of love and peace. An answer to prayers from the video above!

You know I'm still struggling, but you've seen the grace that has been extended to me in that I'm still smiling. God is sustaining me, just as I knew he would. I hope this testimony gives you hope for the trial you are facing in this season. Wait on him. You're going to be ok. <3